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A "Love Is Blind" alum is sharing a powerful message about mental health.
Marshall Glaze, who appeared on Season 4 of the Netflix dating series, just opened up about a dark period in his life that occurred last year.
While appearing on the latest episode of "Love Is Blind" alum AD Smith's "What's The Reality?" podcast, Glaze acknowledged that he experienced suicidal thoughts amid a mental health crisis.
“Last year was just very tough for me mentally, and I was going to take my own life,” he said. “It just got to a point where, I had always been morbidly curious, but never thought about how to do it. And then, one day, I’m just down in the dumps, just crazy depressed. I feel like nothing is going right. That’s what my internal monologue is telling me.”
Marshall Glaze appeared in Season 4 of "Love Is Blind."Amy Sussman / Getty ImagesGlaze went on to explain that his internal "voices" and "darkness" kept getting "a little bit louder" and "a little bit darker."
“It just felt like the walls were just getting closer and closer and closer, and nothing — no favorite meal, no favorite movie, no favorite song — could lift me out of that. And I knew I had a problem when I was OK with, this particular time that I talked to my mom, I was OK with that being the last time I talked to her,” he recalled.
Glaze, who noted that he typically talks to his mom several times a day, said he then knew something was wrong.
“I was going to do what I felt like I had to do, but I couldn’t,” he said.
Glaze said he decided to take a walk in his Seattle neighborhood to clear his head and said this simple act encouraged him to get help.
“I lived on a very busy street in downtown Seattle, and at any time of the day, there’s buses, cars, bikes, people walking, and nobody was out there — no cars, no buses, no bikes, no people, nothing," he said.
After walking around in the deserted area, Glaze returned home and had an important realization.
"I (was like), 'I want to live,'" he recalled.
Smith told Glaze she was happy he decided to go on a walk and get fresh perspective. In response he said, "Thank you. Me too. I'm glad I'm here."
"I'm glad you're here. We're all glad you're here," she said.
While opening up about his decision to go public with his mental health challenges, Glaze acknowledged that the experience helps him "heal."
"I hope that someone out there can resonate with that and choose life," he said.
"Someone will for sure," Smith said.
Chrissy Callahan is a writer for Today.com.
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